No Llamas please
Sorry I am getting behind with my messages. My depression is creeping up on me. I am only getting out of the house maybe once a week. Coming back to an empty house day after day is taking it's toll.
Please forgive me if I have to delete some of your lovely images and you don't get any comments. I can't seen to bring myself to make any art at all...
I know that this will pass and also that there is no way I will resort to pharma meds. I still have the effects of the last lot finished 4 years ago...
I just really need to get out more. Difficult when there is never any one there to share my life apart form my dear little Sunnee (my cat)
Anyway please don't send e solutions and absolutely never pray for me. I am not a believer. I just need to stop feeling sorry for myself and be useful to others, that's all I need.
I was almost poisoned by gas fumes last week, then some new memory foam pillows I got, also were taking their toll. I woke up in the middle of the night retching and feeling really ill. I had slept on the pillows the night before and they were just fine. The second night was awful, the chemical fumes seemed almost visible. I think the combination is what started me off, then a few other things have happened...
The gas fire is fixed, now it is my turn... Unfortunately I have to do it myself.
So if I am missed you know why.
Out of 13 members of my family 12 of us have depression. The other is a step brother, not blood relation at all. He is a psychiatric nurse...
am eating well and sleeping too long. My bed is warm my house is not. I stay in bed to keep warm, then the apathy and lethargy set in and I just want to go back to bed...
Next time I write I will be fine. Thanks for being there.
Listening to: Muse, VNV Nation, Sphongle
Reading: Ra The Law of One
Watching: The Pillars of the Earth. Brilliant.
Playing: With fractals
Drinking: Moroccan peppermint spiced tea