No Llamas please

Added a link to The Celestine Prophecies so you will know how he was stealing my energy. Half way down the page...

About 18 month ago I was introduced to a man with a dog. I was walking to the bus stop, we exchanged names and then my bus appeared on the horizon, so I said bye and started to make my way, he ran ahead of me and stopped the bus. He put his hand on my shoulder and I said thank you. I thought what a kind man.

Didn't catch sight of him for months, however he started walking the dog past my place, often I would be talking to someone on the phone and looking out over the lake, my favourite phone chatting position. Anyway, nearly every day he would appear and started blowing kisses. I thought nothing of it at all and would sometimes wave back. Anyway when I started to arrange the lake clean up, I stopped him one day and asked if he would be interested in helping out. He said he would. He put a note through my door with his phone number. The day of the lake clean up arrived and he worked very hard and even helped me get the council equipment back to my garage...

Big mistake coming; I had my greenhouse to put up and thought I wonder if this person would like to give me a hand. I will offer a meal or a little money as reward... Well he appeared a day late and set about putting up the greenhouse. Well the partially assembled greenhouse was all over the garden and he never checked the number of parts against the list prior to starting the assembling. He calls to me and says there are 2 parts missing... I go to look and the parts cannot be found. So I ask him if I owe him anything and kiss his cheek in a friendly manner to say thank you. Just a friendship peck believe me.

I wanted to make it up to him and as the replacement greenhouse was put up by my ex husband, that was not an option, so I asked him if he would help me get some grow bags to go in the bottom of the greenhouse... Also if he could drill a hole in my bathroom to help hold up a sagging shower rail. I intended this to be a paid job and that he was to have it as a little extra as I know he is on the dole and has no money at all... I was trying to help him.

Well Monday night he appeared, drunk and no sooner had I opened the door he thrust his cold drunken tongue into my mouth, the dog ran upstairs to the computer room and terrified my poor elderly cat who had a 3" ridge on her back, her fur is not that long... By this time of course we are all upstairs, me to rescue the cat, the dog who had eaten all my cats food and HIM... I told him I do not want to be kissed, touched or anything else. However if he wanted to sit over there >>>>>, several feet away from me, then we could talk... He would not leave me alone, he was so intensely forceful, touching my breasts, more of the horrible tongue and grabbing my hair at the back... He said I was frigid and that he wanted to make love to me... Now my heart was pounding in my chest like a jack hammer. I thought I was going to be raped... I tried everything I could to put him off and I mean everything. I asked him what he had done with his life, what his values and principles were, had he been married, had he any children. Seems he has been in prison a couple of times over drugs... He has never really had a job, he doesn't care about anything that is happening in the world and had no idea what an IQ was. He is a 6'2" hippie man of almost 60, not a young guy. I have never been in a position like this before. It took me half an hour to get him to leave. Throughout all the 'conversation' he was groping at me and it took all I had to control him. He was so much in my personal space that I couldn't think clearly. There is no-one here to hear me shout, my windows were all shut tight.

This is how he stole my energy:[link] The Celestine Prophecies. Not a long film, but we all have done things like this in the way we talk to others and just our general behaviour in the company of others. Please watch it, then you will understand. We can even do this with the written word which is why we can get so angry when someone says something we feel is inappropriate... The important bit is in the first half hour, that is the part to which I am referring. The first Insight...

I gave this guy absolutely no sexual encouragement whatsoever. I do not want to have sex at all with someone I do not love. I would have been happy to get to know him as a friend, however he is an emotional and sexual vampire who was sucking all my energy. I couldn't wait to brush my teeth and rinse my mouth out...

I didn't sleep much at all on Monday night. I kept thinking how on earth do women ever get over being raped? Last night was a little better, tonight I will sleep.

To many men it doesn't matter how old a woman is. My daughter thinks he has a massive crush on me and all his passion came to a head on Monday evening. It was not the way to treat any woman. Absolutely no respect...

Yesterday he phoned and denied all of it, he said all he had done was touch my hair and kiss me... I told him I do not want to know him and GOODBYE...

I sincerely hope this is an end to it all. I fully intend to remain a strong (well not quite strong enough) independent woman living on my own for a long time to come... I still love my ex husband and always will... It's been 8 years since he left, we are really good friends... He lives a long drive from here and has his own bedroom in my house, he will always be welcome...

Beginning to calm down a bit now.

Comments please.

Roz X